Letting go of something good: it’s hard. So…how are you supposed to know if it’s the right decision or not?
Sometimes, God puts something on your heart, and it doesn’t show in the form of excitement or happiness. In fact, it may come in a package that looks a lot like exhaustion, sweat, tears and blood.
I was that person who let go of something good.
There was a time last year when I wasn’t sure where my life was going to take me. I was torn between two very different things: completing my student teaching year or going to teach English in Spain. Both completely big decisions, and I just couldn’t figure out what to pick. Each had the opportunity to impact my life in a way I’d never see coming, but that only made it harder.
You know those moments in life where you glance up toward Heaven and ask God where in the heck the dang manual is for this thing? (This thing, of course, being life.) I mean, come on, how are you supposed to just know what to choose every time without the clouds parting and a booming voice directing you?You know those moments in life where you glance up toward Heaven and ask God where in the heck the dang manual is for this thing? (This thing, of course, being life.) Click To Tweet
Your parents don’t know. Neither does your boyfriend. Or your friends. They all have opinions, sure, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you and they don’t know what’s going to make you happiest all of the time. Their opinions, while valid and helpful, are also biased because they live a completely different life than you do.
That’s where I was at. But, let me also tell you a tiny secret:
My emotions were pulling me toward Spain.
Everything in me wanted to go; badly. How cool would it have been to put that on my resume and just be able to talk about in the future? How many people can say they got the chance to life in a another country for a year? What crazy, beautiful, unexpected adventures would be awaiting me in that foreign land? How many lives would I impact every day in this position? It was Spain for crying out loud. Who doesn’t want the opportunity to live in Spain?
Meanwhile, student teaching was looking all the more desolate in the background. It was an afterthought. Never mind the amount of work it had taken me to get there in the first place. I was ready to hit the “postpone until further notice” button on that portion of my life.
It seemed to be all set out in front of me; my feelings were completely pulling me toward a land of mystery and beauty. I wasn’t about to deal with another year of snow and darkness hitting at 4:30pm every day. However, an invisible hand kept reaching out to stop me every time I tried to move forward (or at least what I thought was forward).
Something was stopping me from what I thought I was set on.
In reality, God was trying to show me that choice was a dead-end street, and that was why I couldn’t walk any further in that direction. I knew I could still ultimately decide on Spain if I wanted to, God was silently begging me not to.
I didn’t know it last year, but God was trying to show me that feelings aren’t always trustworthy. Feelings can change in a millisecond and shouldn’t be the only thing you rely on.
God told me to take a second look at things and it ended up being the beginning of a million other open doors and more happiness than I know what to do with. I don’t always love the work I’m doing this year (it’s hard!!), but I can understand that it’s worth it. Faith can’t be based off of how you’re feeling that day, or you’d never have anything to fall back on.God was trying to show me that feelings aren't always trustworthy. Feelings can change in a millisecond and shouldn't be the only thing you rely on. Click To Tweet
What does God say about our feelings?
God’s design for our lives stands strong and taller than any other flimsy thing in this world. Yes, one of those flimsy things is feelings. We might not always love what we’re being called to do in the beginning, but we need to follow anyway. Although it doesn’t always seem appetizing, it doesn’t mean it’s not going to be good for us.
If life was as easy as following what made us seemingly happiest all the time, why would we need God? Where and when would we learn to fall back on Him? Just because we aren’t excited or happy about something in the moment, doesn’t mean we shouldn’t still pursue it. And, likewise, just because we are excited or happy about something, doesn’t mean we should always pursue it.If life was as easy as following what made us seemingly happiest all the time, why would we need God? Where and when would we learn to fall back on Him? Click To Tweet
While we’re looking at one tree, God is busy looking at the entire forest. And although we can’t see it from His perspective just yet, we can trust that He knows what He’s doing. We can also trust that sometimes, our feelings don’t know what they’re doing.
Don’t be afraid to let something go that you think you’re in love with, because sometimes it’s necessary.